MaGyunia wrote:Hey guys and everyone. This might not be the best place to talk about this, which definitely falls out of any Dragonball-related stuff, but I found nowhere else or any other way to convey the message to as many of you as possible.
Some of you might have noticed that I haven't posted here for a month and a half. I had an intellectual collapse along with several simultaneous other issues on a number of different aspects of my life. The intellectual collapse could be considered the final culmination of a process of all kinds of not-so-healthy obsessions, which, for example, resulted in the fact that, during the time I posted here, between July and September, I wrote huge walls of text, while constantly repeating myself so that nobody would forget the main points I was trying to get at - too many at the same time, too. One small part of an enormous, gigantic wave of intellectual insanity came from the fact that I had such an active part in the numerous discussions in the threads here, which I've kept, all of them, in a document for posterity, but that's really not even 1% of the reason.
For one, I'll from now on try to be less repetitive of my ideas and concepts when addressing all the issues I want to discuss about Dragonball, DBSuper in general and each episode or each specific theme, so that I may became more "readable" (not self-criticizing my way or writing or my carefully-thought and valuable ideas and concepts, just the huge amounts of texts, the excessive themes approached in the same, or in a few posts, and especially the degree to which I constantly repeat the points I really, really wanted and still want to put across.
Finally, and most importantly, I've deeply missed interacting with you in this forum, as I see it as the best way to feel somehow connected to the Dragonball fandom. I obviously continued watching every episode as it aired in Japan in real time since I decided to quit posting, but I very deliberately chose not to continue to discuss anything with you here, for the intellectual strain it, among many other issues, produced.
The fact that I view my participation in the discussions with you, just as we did thoroughly between July and September, as the best way to feel somehow connected to the Dragonball fandom instead of just watching everything and keeping up-to-date with all the news and leaked info, etc., led me to reverse my decision and now I'm ready to come back, although, like I said before, I'll try to adjust the levels of repetition and the amount of text and themes I'll be addressing within the same post.
I hope most of you recall the numerous, thorough discussions we had, the way I wrote and participated, all my points and concepts (if you don't, that's fine, but I know most of you do, at least a big percentage and chunk of it, and besides I have the entire thing documented with me) and I also hope that you value the fact that I missed this to the point of "giving up" on fighting it and finally decide to come back with this announcement and subsequent return to regular and normal participation in the discussions.
Watching it just doesn't quite do it, I need to feel a part of the fandom watching it and discussing it at the same exact time I do, I need to feel that I'm part of the same world we all belong to. I can assure I had a tough time after I deliberately decided to quit posting altogether. I can't do it anymore. I'm back. I missed this, and I missed you guys.
I really missed reading this longs texts
, i am not complaining.
Thank you.
