DragonBalllKaiHD wrote:That's really too bad. I really enjoy reading your long and etiquette posts. You are one of the only members from 2004 that posts here every now and then. I really like reading some of the older members' posts because they are how the community was meant to be; great personality and all. As time goes, more and more older users disappear which is a real shame. Have you really lost your interest in Dragon Ball or the forum in general?
Little of column A sorta, a
lot more of column B really.
I don't want to make this anymore weird and uncomfortable than this already is so I'll just keep it simple and direct: I simply don't gel at all with the vast majority of the “personality types” that most prominently define the tone here. At all. Remotely. Someone like me with my particular background and views on a ton of subjects has little to no business associating a great deal much with a lot of the kinds of folks who most heavily represent the social genetic makeup here... and in all honesty, vice versa.
We couldn't have less in common beyond an interest in Dragon Ball and even the nature of THAT is
highly up for debate on a lot of levels. And when you take
that off the table (which you more than easily could) then... what the fuck business do I have for hanging around here again? Oh right: none whatsoever. If it wasn't for a handful of blind-ass twists of fate, our paths would/should NEVER have had to cross and there's probably a ton of good reason for that.
That's not a stab on anyone's personal character: not a word of that is in any remote way a veiled “you all suck and are horrible people and I hate you all”. In many ways far from it actually, as I've been treated with nothing but the utmost pleasant kindness and patience the vast majority of my stay here and I still to this day beyond appreciate that (especially the patience part: I know I can be a colossal fucking pain to bear with a majority of the time).
I even spent a ton of time in the chat and got to know a lot of people here over the years at least decently well enough (which along with a ton of crap that's been well ongoing in my personal life the last decade and change, is what in many ways ultimately helped lead to this little realization of mine). I cultivated a few (
hugely unlikely) online friendships here, which were certainly painful (but I feel ultimately necessary and for the best) to have let go.
Sticking it out here was (a contributing factor among other things at least towards) making me HUGELY unhappy, frustrated, and above all
hopelessly fucking alienated: and if I hung around any longer then all my patience, civility, and goodwill would've inevitably gone right out the fucking window, leading my posts to devolving into REALLY acidic, vile, vitriolic screeds regarding all the countless myriad of ways in which I couldn't be the more exact diametric antithesis of the kind of art and moreover
artistic views that a community like this represents...
...which of course would've lead in all likelihood to Mike eventually banning me anyway the moment he inevitably tired of dealing with my continued, unhinged bile-spewing. So its not like I was ever truly destined for any further longevity here any way you sliced it. At best I shaved off maybe another year (if that even) before the above inevitable scenario would've occurred.
I didn't want any of that to happen anymore than anyone else here would've. Vanishing abruptly therefore seemed by far to be the vastly more mature, low key, and drama-free route to take given the situation; and I've got vastly, boundlessly bigger and more important fish to fry in my own real life than devoting any significant energy towards fueling pointless juvenile drama in an online one anyhow. That's exactly how I felt at age 26 when I booked from here, and its DAMN sure of course how I still feel today at age 30.
There's no bitterness or bad blood harbored here when you get right down to the core of it. All this has been is really little more than a fluke accidental bad clashing of personalities that don't go together. Nothing more or less.
“Whoops, my bad, sorry to have unwittingly burst in on you guys and waste a lot of both of our time needlessly. I didn't fully understand where it was I'd mistakenly wandered into for a bit there, but now that I know I can see now that I don't really belong here. I'll just gather up my things and be moving on now. Sorry to have bothered you.”
This though? This is a pretty simple, rudimentary, fun little diversion (especially since over the last four or five years I've taken a real liking to tumblr as the only piece of “social media” I ever really spend any time on: largely because I never really ever use it as such). This I can do here. And is all I'm gonna intend on doing here for the next however many weeks or however long people here take an interest in helping out with this thing. I imagine over the next month or so some people will help mostly with tagging artists to images and maybe, best case scenario, donating something like maybe five or ten more images (at the absolute possible most) before folks lose interest, it fizzles out, and my presence here along with it once more. That's my rough estimation at least.
Do not remotely mistake this though for "the return of Kunzait the Dragon Ball essayist" though. That's ship has LONG and permanently sailed and sunk to the bottom of the Pacific, which is where I fully intend to leave it to rot. Trust me: if any of you had the slightest inkling of what the posts I was writing and almost-posting (before my ever-ebbing sanity prevailed and I deleted them) in my final months here were like, you'd all BEG me never to show my face here ever again. I don't in any way wish to be brought back down to feeling as nihilistically isolated among a whole bunch of people here as I felt in my last year or two as a regular anymore than any of you would want to see what would result of that.
This famous comedian guy that sadly passed very recently conveyed what I'm trying to say here way more succinctly and beautifully than I ever could so I'll just (at the risk of being a touch schmaltzy, which is probably fitting in a sense considering the guy in question) shamelessly quote him here:
"I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone."
The latter half of that quote was how all my time spent here ultimately ended up leading me to feel. Case closed.
I know I'm being more than a shade oblique here with a lot of that, but going into any more detail than that would be painfully boring, drawn out, masturbatory, and WAY the goddamn hell far beside the fucking point of this thread.
So that's all anyone here really needs to know on that. The finer details, with all possible due respect, is really nobody's fucking business and I don't want to turn a simple art thread on a forum I years and years ago gave up on and left into being “all about me” (anymore than I have already anyway: sorry for the diversion with my stupid BS).
So then. Old, high res Dragon Ball images. Lets all bag 'em and tag 'em (as many as we can find anyway) so I can get the fuck outta here again finally and leave you nice folks to talk shop about your Shonen and whatnot.
JulieYBM wrote:You can thank Kei for that.
Ah yeah. I'm familiar with who that is, so I didn't even have to read the rest of that beyond that first sentence (though I did of course) before the rest all clicked into place in my head. Makes perfect, perfect sense now.
JulieYBM wrote:Having this knowledge and being able to use it to describe why we like something or those whom we would like to see work on the franchise has totally reinvented some of our fandoms.
Um... well put. I'm happy you guys are all having so much fun learning about this stuff together. Best of luck with all that and whatnot.
You're more than welcome to lend a hand with the taggging/crediting effort if you feel up for that.
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